L O V E me. H A T E me.W H A T E V E R.

2009-10-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

No matter how hard I've tried,
I can't seem to find myself forgetting you.

(10:06pm)

Aftermath.

2009-10-02T07:15:00.000-07:00

"Kung di sila ang nagkatuluyan noon,
kasi kayo talaga ang para sa isa't isa."
-Nadine

My all time friend Nadine told me that today. And I was awaken by what she said, I'm not really hoping for things to happen the way I wanted it to be. But if God's plan for me is to be with him, then why not. I hope things will turn out great after all these years. I do hope so.

~.~

There's another typhoon coming, I hope that it will not hit our area, especially those who are still fixing their homes and trying to move-on on what had happened last week. I know God won't let us be like this, I know that He has a plan for us and I know that plan is for the better. :]

(10:22pm)

Wrong Move?

2009-09-27T07:42:00.000-07:00

So yeah, I told my old time friend that I still like him.
Did I made the right decision?
I just did it, because of him.
And to end this prolonging affliction of mine.
DAYUUMM!

(10:44pm)

100th POST!

2009-09-20T01:18:00.000-07:00

Can't wait for this!FVCK!!!!:[

(4:30pm)

zzZ

2009-09-04T19:44:00.000-07:00

I'm on Hiatus mode. GAHH!>_<

(10:46pm)

To a President, a Mother, a Wife, a Filipina, and a HERO

2009-08-05T06:59:00.000-07:00

Many have been moved from her works. I admired her for standing up for our country and being a great icon for the Filipino people. After the death of her husband Ninoy, she didn't stepped back in fighting for democracy instead she stood still and fought for the country. A simple housewife, into a president and into a president we finally met a Hero.
Our country mourned, in the knowledge of her death, prayers have become a music in our ears as we hoped for her recovery, but God knew better He wanted her to rest, to be happy in heaven with her husband and to be happy with Him.
As President Cory enter the gates of heaven, she is still with us, she is within our hearts and she will be forever remembered by the people she once stood upon and fought for until her very last breath. Through generations and generations she will never be forgotten.

Thank you for fighting for our freedom, thank you for raising the flag of all Filipino women, thank you for giving us hope and thank you for the love.
From your people, Thank you and Goodbye.

Corazon Aquino
1933-2009

(10:18pm)

Images.

2009-08-01T07:47:00.000-07:00

These are the picture taken last month in our classroom during Philosophy & Logic class..And from my post under this entry..take note..there was nobody in my left side in that time.

(10:54pm)

Acquaintance party slash weird stuffs

2009-07-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

College life, it's kinda' tough, but I'm sure in time I'll get the hang of it. Today our school had an acquaintance party for the freshies, for us to have some bonding time with those student's that we don't know, or don't know that much. I'm not really fond of cooperating in parties like this, but I'm glad that I enjoyed it. We had some games, and ate dinner. My blockmates had a dance number, and the others played in a band(some are not that good, ear bleeding voice..xDD), and of course none stop taking pictures. I'm happy that our section had this cool bonding that others thought was never that fun and in addition the HRM1 are also with us, not all of them but most of the guys bonds more often with the PT rather than their section, it doesn't matter anyway.
In an unexpected moment, in the middle of the party lights, loud music, my friend Mikee was hit by a knee of my other friend, because their dancing too harsh and poof! Blood started to drip in Mikee's nose, we thought that it was a minor shot, but we were wrong it didn't stopped bleeding even if the party's over, and they said that they're taking him in the ER, so it was a pretty bad hit. I hope that he'll get better soon, and I hope he can go home by now.

Going on, my life doesn't have much twists nowadays, but there are pretty weird happenings going on. First, the picture of me, and the other one with Joseph, my seatmate was absent that day. It was a thursday morning during Philosophy & Logic class, while our prof. was babbling around, we thought of taking some pictures. Two shots, one solo and one with Seph. We saw the picture by the next week and omg, there was someone beside me, believe me or not, the first one there was a shadow, just like my seatmate but the face is not shown. And the other one there's a hand. creepy eh? The next one, my old schoolmates are acting weird they told me that they like me, I was kinda' shocked about it because they are three, but I'm not open for those kind of opportunities, I want to stay single as I am now, just want to be more happy and focus in my studies. Who knows, maybe someday I'm already a doctor. :]

(11:56pm)

Over

2009-07-18T05:16:00.000-07:00

Everything's said and done
Once I made a choice
No one can take that back
I need to do this for the both of us
It's final
It's official
~-~
Soon I'll die
I'm a freaking anemic person
And I'm trying my best to prevent it
Soon enough I'll have the Anorexia Nervosa illness
Which means "eating disorder"
I'm so damn thin these days
And I'm always stressed out
Dayuumm life

(8:21pm)

Harry Potter 6

2009-07-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

After the years of wait! Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince is finally in theaters! We had no classes for today so my friend and I went to MOA to watch HP, and it's totally incredible, the years of wait is not wasted when you watch the movie, Hermione is so pretty in this movie, she and Ron is a great match and also the young lord Voldemort looks gay. hahaha... The movie is not yet finished; my friend told me that the part two of HP will be released on October, so yeah I still need to wait. I don't want to be a spoiler so you guys should watch it! It's pretty awesome! :]

(8:58pm)

Love em' both!♥

2009-07-12T04:31:00.001-07:00

So yeah, I saw this very cool picture of my two favorite artist! I hella' love them both, I hope their next photo they'll include Cassadee Pope in it! That one will be so so cool man! :]

(7:35pm)

Revenge of The Fallen

2009-06-28T01:25:00.000-07:00

I just got home after celebrating Athena's birthday with our friends and her family at SM Mall of Asia. Nadine and I got to MOA by six something in the evening and met the others at Savory near the parking lot, after eating we saw the fireworks display by seven in the evening and went straight to IMAX to meet the others. Athena's brother bought the last show in the evening and it is by 9:30, so while waiting me and my friends together with the celebrant went windowshopping! I also bought a family sized pizza for my family.

The cinema started letting people in by 9:30 and the show started at any moment, we watched the movie in an ordinary cinema, not at the IMAX theater, but the picture is still so great. I will give a 5 thumbs up for Transformers, it's going to be like the movie of the year! Everything is perfect! I so loved the part 2 rather than the first one (I slept while watching it, I didn't enjoyed it)! The show ended before 12:00 midnight and I got home before 1:00 am. The movie killed it and made my night! Thanks so much to Athena for the treat and Happy Birthday!!! :]

This movie is so cool!!OMG!!

(1:41am)

My 16th!:]

2009-06-25T00:32:00.001-07:00

OUTDATED!: The 24th of June, I finally met the 16th year of my life and it's also the feast day of Saint John the Baptist. It's normal for me on not having class during this time of the year, because at my place (Cavite City) we usually celebrate the feast day by having a water festival all over the city, and unfortunately I'm currently studying in Pasay City so that's why I have to go to school. I'm not used to going-to-school-during-birthdays, so I didn't expected much. I was early for school, people kept on greeting me through SMS, our first class is Philosophy & Logic, I was called to lead the prayer then my classmate whispered "Birthday Girl", the room is too quiet so my professor heard him, and told me to get back to my seat. He told the prayer leader to include me in the prayer, I thought everything was over then he asked some of my classmates to give a speech for me, and he also told them to sing a Happy Birthday song for me and that I should be treated like a queen because it's my birthday. Laughter overflowed my day, and by night time Osh went to the MOA with me, we just ate at Burger King (my favorite!wee) and a one big walk-a-thon.

I never thought that having a birthday during school days isn't bad after all. :]

Thanks to those people who greeted me, specially for the heartfelt messeges. I love you guys! mwah! :*

(9:23pm)

First Week?

2009-06-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

First week of college is not that so harsh, except for going home late and tired and for waking up so early in the morning. But it's fun actually, meeting new people having new friends. They're super harmless too! So, in class we're only 23, that's the official number for this semester, i guess? It doesn't include those who are the irregular ones. Tons of assignment are loaded for this week, and finally I have that stupid laboratory manual that I've been looking for chemistry, my classmates and I searched so many National Bookstores in Manila and in Cavite area. Luckily, I found mine! Yey! :]

(11:43pm)

College.

2009-06-14T06:15:00.000-07:00

So yeah, tomorrow is the day that I'm going to step in the floors of college life. Some of my friends are excited, some are scared, some are nervious and some are neutral just like me. Well, I don't feel anything about college, except that I've been expecting that it would be hard, especially in my course (BS-PT) and it's going to be so tiring, going home everyday... It's like gaahh! Or not? Hmmm, I hope tomorrow will be a great day for me, and also to my batch mates and other friends whose entering college. Maybe we can all be serious about it, but never forget to have fun(for it to be not so boring at all). :D

On the other half of this post, well he gave me this DVD today, and he told me to watch this Korean movie "My Girl and I", it's about a tragic love story and the girl died, in the end the boy still loved her even after so many years.
He also gave me letters, and a drawing of me and him. He is still so sweet even in simple things, seems like it's normal to him being like that, and I want him that way. I don't want him to change, even if he's a 100% more sweeter than me, when he acts like that he makes my heart skip a beat, he always surprises me in every little thing he does. For me, he's still perfect beyond his mistakes. That's why I still love him in every single day of my life. :]

(9:28pm)

Kate Voegele

2009-06-12T06:17:00.000-07:00

Finally! Finally! I found the official music video of Kate Voegele's single "Only Fooling Myself" (to those who watches One Tree Hill, you might know her), I found it on Myspace, because you can only watch this video in YouTube if you are in the US area. Try to watch it! The video bored me a little, but she looks so pretty in here, she always does. BTW, I like the first version of the song because this one is kinda' fast. Anyways, I hope you'll like it! :]

(9:47pm)

4th

2009-06-11T07:36:00.000-07:00

Today, the eleventh day of June 2009,Osh and I met the four months of being together(for good) and still going on. The both of us knows on how much we've been through, after so many fights and the first break-up(probably the last one too), deep in our hearts, we still feel that love that we had since we'd been together. As I can see and feel, every day that passes by in my life I'm always falling for him. I love him so much that no one or nothing could break the two of us. And I will continue loving him until my last breath or even after my death, I definitely won't stop loving him.

I love you JOSHUA ROME APOLINARIO REYES!:]

(10:47pm)

Reminisce.

2009-06-10T03:55:00.000-07:00

Going back to the place where you learned a lot in life is worth reminiscing. The place you became mature, where you learned how to handle loads of problems and responsibilities, where you first had your puppy love, or maybe true love in some cases, where you met different kinds of people, where you found the real friends that you've been longing for a lifetime, the place where you had fun, cried a lot, and where you started embracing every moment of your life.

High school, it happened so fast, it felt like yesterday when I started to set foot in the grounds of my Alma mater wearing the white blouse and the checkered black, white and gray skirt. I can remember myself falling for someone so hard that it lasted for years (I finally got over him :]), having enemies older than me and a lot taller, the feeling of performing in front of your batch mates during a musical play, winning that play :), dancing my soul for four years in cheer dance, making a newspaper and going home like a retard, wasting my money for nonsense stuffs, the three Recollections, performing in the field demonstration for four years(it was required though), creating a research paper with my group about the rebelliousness of the modern teenagers, going home real late, and a sermon from my parents as I got home, performing in front of the whole student body, the super fun three day Retreat in Oasis Silang, Junior/Senior prom, and so much more! All in all, for the four short years in my life, I haven't regret anything that had happened in my high school career, to be honest, I miss my old school and of course my old classmates.

As we went to our Alma mater this afternoon, I laughed a lot, I know this won't be the last but it would take a long time for me to laugh like that again. Seriously.

(7:25pm)

Stuck with Gaia x]

2009-06-04T05:47:00.000-07:00

Nothing happened that's so special today, I just got bored so I thought of posting an entry. So it's still raining, I don't think it's new anymore. This morning, I washed tons of clothes cuz' when our nanny left for some sort of vacation(I think), there's a lot of dirty clothes, so I decided to wash them today. It took me so long before I could finish because the gadamn electricty went out for an hour or two. After washing the clothes, my friend and I went to McDonald's to meet Angela, she bought our books. I bought food for mom,dad and sister then went to the market to buy Jerick that screen protector thingy.

When I got home, I got so bored again. So I decided to play GaiaOnline just like last night, and I also started watching Boys Over Flowers in MySoju. Until now I'm still bored, what the heck. x]

ADD ME!:]
GAiA!
WATCH HERE!:]
CLiCK!

(9:01pm)

Kiss Me in the Rain. :]

2009-05-31T18:41:00.000-07:00

Today's the end of May and it's raining so hard, I told Oshiiiee to come over to my place today cuz' I miss him. We watched the freakin' long movie "Armageddon". When all we wanted to hear is the movie's OST. After watching the movie, we talked about random stuffs and my parents asked him to have dinner with us, he's being so shy that I have to force him to eat with us or maybe with me, cuz' we ended up eating together.

Here comes my favorite part of my day, when my mom asked us to pick up the cloth to be used for our uniform, it's still raining outside, so we walked in the rain, played in the rain (though it's kinda' gross, but i liked it!xD), and he kissed me in the rain. If he only knew that I've been longing that to happen, to kiss someone I love in the rain. I can feel my heart dance while we're walking. I want that moment to happen again. Seriously. :]

(8:29pm)

Boreeeeddd...

2009-05-27T07:35:00.000-07:00

Me so bored that's why I did this. It's from a friend here in blogger. :D

8 things I'm looking forward to:
1. College?
2. Me Birthday
3. Malling
4. Paramore Concert
5. Trip to KOREA
6. DSLR
7. Every coming day
8. Have a new cellphone

8 things I did yesterday:

1. Woke up
2. Played Grand Chase
3. Played Audition
4. Ate
5. Drink
6. Watched T.V
7. Net
8. Sleep

8 things I wish I could do:
1. Fly
2. Sing like Cassadee Pope
3. Turn back time
4. Speak Korean
5. Play the Guitar
6. Play the Piano
7. Know a lot more about HTML's
8. Use AdobePhotoshop like a SUPERPRO!

8 shows I watch:
1. HotShot(watched it on DVD..xDD)
2. TyraBanksShow
3. MTV
4. MYX
5. OneTreeHill
6. GossipGirl
7. OtherETCshows
8. Moviessss

(10:43pm)

♥ ♥ ♥

2009-05-25T21:55:00.001-07:00

I love my bebe so mattss!..wee.. As you can see here's our picture. A weird one..Haha..Love you!! :]

(unknown time.x])

I Love You So Matss!:]

2009-05-24T03:39:00.000-07:00

To my Boyfriend:]:Thanks you so much for forgiving me! And not giving me up after what happened yesterday, I'm so very very happy! I love you so much bebe!:]

To my Friends, and my Besplen(Torratss):Thank you guys for being with me even at my worst times, and thanks for the advices and mostly for the comfort. Special thanks to my Besplen, for always being there for me and for helping me. I owe you a lot. I haven't forgotten my promise to you in the near future. :]

(6:41pm)

Waiting? For What?GAHH.

2009-05-23T07:09:00.000-07:00

Gahh..I've been online for like 9 hours straight, and still going on. I'm bored, I'm fvcked up. I dunno' if I'm waiting for something or someone. If it's him, I don't know what to do cuz' I already told myself that I won't wait for him anymore and look what I'm doing right now. WTF!

10:16pm:Checking the books that I'm going to sell..gahaha..And am gonna' pack the stuffs that I'm going to bring tomorrow in our swimming. So I'll stop typing for a while. xDD
11:37pm:Done talking with Jerick on the phone, he hasn't texted me yet, and I haven't started packing stuffs for tomorrow.GAAHH!! 10hours online.. o.O
11:59pmDone packing, and I'm also done with this post but I will be online for I dunno' when..Btw, GoodMorningg???xDD

And this song kept on playing all over again, it makes me a lot more sad.gahh. :[
FindMe-BoyceAvenue

(11:59pm)

Sorry for everything :[

2009-05-23T00:27:00.001-07:00

To my boyfriend.. I'm so sorry for being selfish, I know I'm being too unfair to you. It's not like I'm not proud having you here with me, of course I'm proud but its just not like that. I understand why you're mad at me and you feel bitterness in what I've been doing. I just don't know what to do, I'm so sorry I hope you could forgive me, it's all my fault. I am really really sorry, I'm not sure if you're going to read this still I'm hoping that you would. Again, I'm so sorry for everything, I'll do my best to make it up to you, I'll do my best to make things better. I always make things worst in everything I do. I'm so sorry. I love you.. :[

(3:35pm)

Hot Shot Marathon.yea!:]

2009-05-22T22:19:00.001-07:00

Finally!I've finished all 24 episodes of HOTSHOT for four days!.. I love how the story goes, and it's not just about basketball it's also about love, forgiving, friendship and hard work. You guys should really try watching it! I bought a DVD copy of it, because i missed a lot of episodes of the show on tv, and there are so many crappy comercials.:|

Show Luo is the best baby!!xDD
He plays as Yuan Da Ying or Andy..ya' better check it out. :]

(7:43pm)

You're right, I cannot understand. :[

2009-05-21T07:26:00.000-07:00

I suddenly felt sad when he told me that no one understands him and that nobody can make him happy today. I really can’t understand why he’s acting strange when he got home, earlier this morning he was not like this. I really can’t understand, because he won’t even want to tell me the reasons, and he decided not to talk to anyone for a while. I don’t know if that’s the reason why I’m being like this right now.

(10:20pm)

Faux Pas

2009-05-20T01:20:00.000-07:00

How can I start this? Hmm.. I’ve just realized that people are really not the same, they can misunderstand things, things you thought is fine for you and for the others. You can’t compare a person from the other because they’re unalike. Hard hearts are not that easy to be soften, though you wanted to change or you wanted to be what people expects you to be, but sometimes there are things that should be remained permanent. Some people are sweet and there are those who are not. You can’t change things easily, especially when that person has that something within them for so long, they need to be understood and not to be scolded. And most of all, you can always hurt a person with or without your knowledge, and I prefer to myself to remain calm and silent in what I wanted to say deep inside of me, for it can be one of the main reason for the hurt of other people. Just listen, listen to them and understand their feelings. Put aside yourself, swallow your pride for sometime, and give them the attention they’ve been longing for so long.

I’m not a sweet person, I cannot comfort people the way they wanted and I don’t pretend. I'm just being myself. Change is not that easy for me, no matter how hard I tried. Some things are meant to be permanent and should be accepted.

(2:13pm)

I think this is sooo lame.

2009-05-12T06:37:00.000-07:00

Well, there has been some problems here at our house, so maybe I won't have the chance to use the net. Maybe it's only for a while, and it sucks man! I can't believe this is really happening, with some stupid some unknown reasons my parents took away the DSL this morning, and my dad put it back just this evening. I hope they won't take it away again, because it's really killing me, I'm so bored and I don't have that much to do. I hope tomorrow will be a great day for me, unlike these past two days. T_______T

(9:41pm)

New Layout!:]

2009-05-09T00:24:00.000-07:00

^{At last! I'm done re-editing my layout and I'm so sick with html codes, I've been dealing with them since last night..sheez..Btw, I would like to thank Pam for telling me how to do these shiits. Also to my old contacts here in my blog, please tagg me you links so I could relink ya' guys again, I'm so sorry for the inconviniece and thanks for the time! :]}

^(3:24pm)

Skate. :]

2009-04-19T21:46:00.000-07:00

Yey! I just got home from MOA with my sister, granny, and mom. My sissy and I went skating for two hours or more, at first I was pretty scared because I don't want to fall down and hurt myself or whatever, but at God's mercy I didn't fell, when we got inside I was holding on to the sides of the rink and kept on calling my sis, and when she went through the middle I went after her and that's when I started to learn at least a little of how to skate. It was a bit tiring but super fun! After skating we went to Yellow Cab to eat. I ate a lot! Most of what we bought are foods, doughnuts, cupcakes, and brownies and my sis and I went to Penshoppe to shop, sunglasses for her and a cap for me. We rode the ferry boat to go home. :]

(8:38pm)

Kill the jealousy.

2009-04-16T07:10:00.000-07:00

His jealousy kills me, not literally but gahh! I kept on telling him not to be jealous to those guys that I talk to because they’re not going to have me. I’m still his, feels like he can’t trust me the way I am to him, and that freakin’ hurts. We’ve been fighting for the same stupid reason all these time and that sucks dude! I’ve been trying and trying and trying for him to trust me all along and try to understand those situations around us, but nothing seemed to happen, I don’t know what to do anymore. I just try to laugh about everything because I don’t wanna’ get mad at him and that would start a big fight, again. Man, I’m so pissed. I haven’t eaten my dinner, for the 5^th time that we had a fight, he’s not even texting me. I’m so fvcked up. :[

(10:11pm)

Bored. :]

2009-04-11T23:40:00.000-07:00

What I did when I was so freakin' bored. :]

(2:41pm)

Missing.

2009-04-10T19:33:00.001-07:00

Yay! I’m back in blogging it’s been a while since I last put some shits here. So here it goes, I suddenly felt nostalgic, I miss my friends in high school. Because next school year we’re already in college and I’m not going to be with the same people again and maybe it’s just I’m not used to it. I’m going to miss my recess mates. Djay whom I always ask for favors and everything, Cheenie and Jeck who argues a lot, Justin my very good friend that argues with me a lot(LOL!), Mikee when he tells me strange stories about his love life, Neil who is kinda’ funny, Sam whom I’ve been with for three years, the one I tell my problems and everything! Oh gosh, I’m missing them already and as for college I’m pretty sure I’m going to miss them terribly. Ugh . :[

(9:43pm)

Lost Generation.

2009-02-21T01:41:00.000-08:00

I saw this video in the profile of my friend in friendster, and I was fascinated by the message of the clip. I hope you guys would like it and realize something about our generation also for the next era. :)

(5:43pm)

Heavens :)

2009-02-20T07:44:00.000-08:00

Thanks for those who appreciated my album in the Career exhibit! Thank you for all the praises and compliments about my works, I really didn’t expect those persons who greeted me about the shots that I made in photography. Thanks a lot! I really really do appreciated every word. :)

(11:50pm)

Career Days//Nadine's 16th

2009-02-20T06:56:00.000-08:00

Today was the last day of our “Career Days”, and also the sweet 16 of my beloved friend Nadine! Yesterday and earlier this morning we had career talks, stories of the school’s alumni’s during their fourth year, college days and also in their old or new jobs. They have different stories but they’re now all successful. In the afternoon, we had our costume party in that we are going to dress-up the career that we want to have someday, and I chose to be a Photographer or a Photojournalist rather, some are nurses, engineers, soldiers and a lot more. We had the chance to introduce ourselves one by one, and we also had a video which is going to be shown in our Promenade. We all had fun, having that bonding with the whole fourth year. And we enjoyed it a lot, it’s also because this is the last, and we only have days left before we start practicing for graduation.

After the party party in school, we went to Lydia’s to celebrate Nadine’s 16th. It was fun also, the others sang and played the guitar while I eat all through out, I was so full, until now!

(11:02pm)

OutDated: 02.11.09

2009-02-12T18:26:00.000-08:00

Finally, I found HIM and this is for real. It’s been a long while since I’ve had a boyfriend, now I have my own and I love him so much and he’s everything to me.
He’s my falling star, an angel from above and he’s mine. :)

Story behind everything:
We’ve been friends since December, but we don’t talk even if the both of us are together with our friends. He once asked me something, and I thought that was the first and last. In Simbang Gabi, we both went to church together, only the two of us, at that point everything started to bloom. We texted each other and went to church again, until we got close. I can still remember that I’m with him and my friends last Christmas Eve, and we went to the mall with his cousin after Christmas. And after the new years day, he went to my house and that was the time he told me he likes me and all that. After a day, he started courting me. I liked him since November, but I was too shy to talk to him or whatever.

By the night that I’m going to say yes. He walked me home, it was quarter to 11pm he already said goodbye, but I hesitated to go, because at that time I really want to say yes, that I want to be his forever. So I whispered in his ear:
“Pano pag sinagot kita ngayon? Anong gagawin mo?”
He was shocked and told me he’s going to be nervous and he’s going to jump
And I told him:
“Oh tumalon ka na”

We were under the stars with the moon shining beneath us.
I love him now, I love him tomorrow, and I will continue loving him every day. :)

February :]

2009-02-10T14:07:00.000-08:00

This week is going to be our Foundation day. So we are preparing and practicing some stuffs at school, but I’m not that busy. We played tennis (even though I don’t know how) in Sangley my classmate kind of owns the court or somethin’. So I played and played until I got so tired. Yesterday, we cleaned the “environment”, we cleaned the outer side of the school, and yeah it’s really dirty and after that we danced and danced. I got nothing left more to say, so I guess I’ll be seeing you guys around! :3

(8:00pm)

Farewell 2008!

2008-12-31T07:10:00.000-08:00

My last post for 2008. It’s been a long year for me, since there are a lot of things that had happened from the past months. And now I am entering a new beginning of my hopes and dreams, new struggles for me to face, new faces to see. Things may change this 2009, we can lose our way as days pass, and problems might come and go, still we should be strong because that is our purpose here on earth, why time is kept on running.As the year ends, I will never forget the people that I’ve met, things that happened good or bad, and from the mistakes that I made I will take it as my strength to continue my life happy in what I’m doing and happy with all the people who cares about me. Especially my family, and my best buddies, without them I will be nothing. My life doesn’t have a purpose anymore.

To all the people that I’ve met this 2008, I hope that you guys won’t ever change, thank you for accepting me for who I really am, for being there for me through the good and bad times of my life, for being my inspiration as time goes by, for being my guide in life, for being a shoulder to lean on, for the prayers, for the care and concerns, and most of all for loving me as me. I’m sorry for the people that I hurt before, and thank you for forgiving me.
This 2009, may our lives become a better one, and let’s not regret the things that will pass us. Thank you guys!!

Especially to these persons who never left me hanging in the air

SamAdao,NadineValerio,ArrianneTan,AthenaLedesma,BeaBorja,
OliferAbuid,TracyGrey,JemSanMiguel,LaraMorga,MichelleAnte,
NicoleValerio,CamilleSilverio,JustinApolinario,JerickPapa,
MikeeUmali,DjAgni,OshReyes,GironGajunera,NeilAntalan,
JamesTorrato,RhyckPeralta,SamPlameras,ChadFernandez,
CjDeVera,JefferyMatias,JovenVergara,JamesTopacio,PrinceTeroy,
RonVitug,JosephRonquillo,JozefLontoc,JasonBautista,etc.

One more hour to go and it's the new beginning! :)

(11:00pm)

60th Post! :)

2008-12-24T01:03:00.000-08:00

Today’s Christmas Eve, and I just completed the nine nights of Simbang Gabi. It felt good, even if I’m always waking up at three in the morning. It’s worth the sacrifice after all. And I also made this banner right here, for ***********************************…I won’t tell you guys about it yet. But you can support us by copying the code in the box at the bottom of this post and pasting it somewhere you like. I hope you guys will have a very Merry Christmas tomorrow! God Bless! :)

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(5:13pm)

RoofTop :)

2008-12-20T06:49:00.000-08:00

It’s my first time to go to the top of a house, or to the rooftop. It’s not that high, but I liked it up there. It was at Giron’s old home, I had a hard time going to the very top but it’s worth the effort. We spent our time there, watching the sunset, jamming, tripping on people at the streets, and stayed there till’ the sun is no more in our sights. We lie there telling stories about our lives, teasing each other. It was fun though, even if the breeze was so cold. I had a great time spending my time with my friends, I hope it will happen again. :)

(11:00pm)

Folie á Deux

2008-12-17T02:53:00.000-08:00

Fall Out Boy is back! With their new album entitled “Folie á Deux”, which means “madness shared by two”. I like their songs here, rather than the ones before. Especially “What a catch, Donnie”, “Disloyal order of water buffaloes”, and “America’s suitehearts”. This album is so rad! You guys should buy your copies, it’s pretty cool! :)

(7:16pm)

Bookstore

2008-12-06T07:11:00.000-08:00

Two days straight of misfortunate events. We went to the mall to buy a book, and then watch the movies. The book that I’ve always wanted is already sold out, so I decided to buy “For One More Day” by Mitch Albom, and I thought of looking for some other books that I can buy aside from the other one. As I was looking at the books on the shelves I accidentally hit something, it’s a figurine of the three kings, and I only broke one. I over heard the lady said “Di naman niya sinasadiya”. Still, the security wanted me to go to the office, and so I was there waiting for some shits, the price of the set is 4,125 pesos! I started to think of a way to pay it already, and I told the lady that I only broke one, and it’s really an accident. So they divided it by 5, and it costs 825 pesos, I ask my friend to pay for it first because I only have 250 pesos in my wallet. I wanted to scream because of anger, and it’s really not my fault and I don’t even know that there’s a figurine beside me. He told me that I can pay him in January, and now I’m thinking of a way to earn money because I wanted to go with my friends in Star City this December 29. I don’t what is happening to me, is this a karma? And I don’t even know what I did wrong, for this events to happen.

(11:11pm)

Anniversary

2008-12-05T02:58:00.001-08:00

This day sucks. Your parents fight in front of you, because of a non-sense reason. And guess what. Today’s their wedding anniversary, I want them to be happy and I don’t want things to be like this. I’m not used to them, fighting over something. I know my parents they don’t fight or argue, but what happen? My tears are still falling while I’m typing this shit, I don’t know when will this stop. My mother also went somewhere, and my father is alone in their room. I can’t take this so much pain.

(6:58pm)

Opening December Hopes..

2008-12-03T02:42:00.001-08:00

It’s already December..FTW… Sorry for not posting anything last month. I’ve been so busy doing school stuffs, and also fixing my life. I guess, I’ve been reading Twilight which was given to me by Prince :) (a friend of mine). And now I’m almost finished.

I can’t feel the aura of Christmas this year, maybe it’s all because I don’t have money at all. About my love life, life about love. I’m done with A or I rather I should type his name, it’s Alfred. Now I have someone, he’s not just a someone or somebody to me, he’s more than that. This time it’s different, we really don’t talk at school, we only smile at each other for he is trying to hide something from the people around us. I understand his situation on why we should be like that, I love him and he told me he loves me to, I’m holding to those words while we are waiting for that right time to come. Patience. Patience is what we need, and I’m more than willing to wait for him. I’ll have the first letter of his surname, as an identity. I can’t expose him yet. And the word is L…

(6:47pm)

I Stay In Love. the Official Video! :)

2008-10-31T19:51:00.001-07:00

This is a new single of Mariah Carey entitled "I stay in love", i knew this song since last summer. My friend texted me that it now has its official video! I hope you'll like it, cuz' I loved this song eversince I first heard it! :)

Special thanks to Patrick Pleno!:)
(10:55am)

Last High School Intramurals.

2008-10-31T19:47:00.000-07:00

I’m sorry for the late post, and this one is outdated!:D

October 30,2008: The last day of our intramurals, and awarding afterwards.
Today we are on the second game of the day, and we’re all pressured because the players of the juniors are almost all hella’ big, and tall. And most of our team, are small like girls, and I’m one of them. So we played with our hearts poured on the game, just like what Sam told us “sabihin na natin na mas magagaling sila sa inyo, pero kung ang puso mo naman ay nasa paglalaro kaya niyo yun! Kung manalo man kayo para sa inyo yun, kung hindi naman di yun para sa inyo cute parin tayo!”. When I got in, I had four consecutive fouls, hahahaha… I don’t really care if I got fouled out, I want to see their faces when they got hurt or whatever. And guess what, we won the game! We had fun, and most of all no one from our team got hurt or injured, and that’s a good thing.

In the afternoon, it’s the most awaited event in our intramurals, the Cheering Competition. Most in our squad are nervous and scared, Apol told us that before we start we should pray in the chapel first, all of us in the squad are gathered in the chapel, and we had our own prayers. As the competition started, the juniors are first in line, their entrance are like creepy and big time, they had coats and masks and whatever. Next, are the sophomores, all dressed in orange and white, their routines are all clean and well-practiced, they almost got overtime, but it’s a good thing they didn’t they had 14 minutes and 54(I guess) seconds. Third ones are the freshmen, we didn’t saw they’re whole routine because we went out the gym, to stretch a bit and recall everything we had practiced in the whole past three months, we prayed together that we hoped no one will get hurt, injured, failed to do the right steps and no one will fail to do our liftings. And so we’re on the dance floor, all in blue and black, the crowd screaming their lungs out. The music played and off! We danced our hearts out, all the sweats dripping from our faces, hearing noises from the whole gym, all the people staring at you, and got shocked when they saw our stunts. The song ended; there was noise, and then silence. We waited for the results to be announced.

On the third place… the freshmen!!
On the second place… the juniors!!
The next that I will announce will be the first place, and the last one will be the champion
On the first place… the… sophomores!!
*screaming people all over, the loudness is deafening*
Three times in a row! The Seniors!!!

I cried, I got overjoyed. We almost lost our hope doing practices and having nothing, we fought so hard and everything was all said and done. The champion, we are the undefeated ones. It will take years for somebody to break our record. It’s been three years since we set foot in the floor of the gym, wearing green and announced as the third place, two years since it was announced that we got the title “champion” in the cheering competition, and a year ago since it was announced champion again, and now still undefeated. We thank God for the guidance, and blessings He gave us and also for the people who supported us throughout the years, and for all the prayers. We’ve been doing this not just for ourselves but for all the people who loved us form the very start.

P.S. I'll put our video as soon as it was released in the net. :)

(10:49am)

10

2008-10-27T15:20:00.000-07:00

A(the fourth year guy) talked to me for the very first time! And this is our short conversation
*nakatingin ako sa kanyang mga paa, habang napadaan siya sa tabi ko*
*kinalbit niya ako*
Kit: oh..bakit?
A: number 10 ka pala
Kit: oo ngah eh, bakit 10 ka din ba?(kahit alam ko naming 10 talaga number niya,duhh,style yun!xD)
A: oo*nakasmile*

10 is my jersey number in the basketball girls, and so as he in their varsity team in basketball. Actually, I was not the one who chose that number, it was sir Edwin because I was not able to write my number which is 11.
We have our intramurals this week, and we are the first game in the basketball girls, I saw him watching me play. And what has happened is the most unexpected thing I ever think of. And oh, please pray for us this coming Friday that we can win the cheering competition. We’ve been working hard on our routines; we only have Joseph to teach us the liftings, but not the dance steps, so I hope we could win this! :)

(7:30pm)

Why is it that things are becoming awful?

2008-10-15T06:42:00.000-07:00

“In life you cannot expect too much from people
For they can’t be the one whom you thought they were
They can’t give you the things that you have wanted
And sometimes they cannot even show you the things that you wanted to see from them
For they are not the ones whom you thought would be more than what you think”

“Is it a sin if I doubt?
Is it wrong if I think the other way?
Because sometimes no matter how hard you trust somebody
There’s still a chance of doubting
Especially when they just broke up”

“He was like a brother to me
More than just a friend
He’s like someone whom you cannot live without
And all of a sudden
He was gone like the wind
I lost my secret keeper
I lost a brother
I lost a friend
I lost my best friend”

-kit`

(9:43pm)

Opposites Meet. :D

2008-10-07T08:18:00.000-07:00

I have a crush, with this boy that I don’t know if he’s younger than me, older than me, or are we just at the same age. He was a junior, a classmate of Nicole (Nadine’s sister), I asked her yesterday for his number and she told that he was so quiet in class. I was kinda’ shocked about it, it’s like I’m oh so liking him, and he’s almost the opposite of me. I mean, I’m not that loud person, but I think I’m just in the middle. James told me that why am I being like this lately, I’ve been liking guys who are quiet, shy, or not that really outgoing. I don’t know, I was just attracted by those kinds of boys, and they can buggle your mind because of their silence and shyness. Also this afternoon, while I was reading a chapter in “Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul”, the only person on my mind is him. And that’s really really weird, I hope I won’t fall so much for him until I will get to that point again, that my heart would be broken.

Next is, in Nadine’s house her mo told she and her sister that they didn’t went to the Prayer Meeting in their church, so I came up with an idea that we should have a Prayer Meeting in their house. I felt so cleansed and warm about our topics; I wanted to cry when we went to the topic where you can be saved and go to Heaven, while your family gets left behind for another chance. I don’t want that to happen, I want to be with them no matter what they’re my life, my hope, my everything. They meant a lot to me, and if that day comes when all the believers will go to heaven I want to be a part of it, not just me but also my family and to those who played their roles in my life even for a short while. :)

(11:18pm)

Problems like Shit.

2008-10-06T03:30:00.000-07:00

This pass few days our family was dealing a lot, especially this financial problem shit. It started with this, the power supply (I guess) in our house broke down, because of its old age, it’s been there for almost 50 years and it needs to be changed. So we don’t have electricity in the house (we only have in the kitchen and in my room) for like two or three days. My mother is like almost complaining to me and my sister about our financial problem, and they have been borrowing money to pay the repairman and the other expenses, I’m also involved with this problem because I need to pay half the prices of our jersey in basketball and also for my costume in cheering. I know my family’s been having a hard time to budget things, so all I have to do is run to my besplen(James Torrato) for help, oh gad! This is going to be like shit, I asked him if I could borrow some money so that I could pay all my expenses in school. He agreed, and he loved to help, but still this is not how things are supposed to be. Just like this afternoon, when I got home for lunch I asked my sister where my father was my nanny told me that he went to my mom’s friend to borrow some money. And before I went to school, me, my sister and also my dad are shouting at each other. I’m trying to hide my tears because I’m not that person who just cries in front of everybody, my day is so ruined. At our last subject I and James talked about on how much I will borrow from him, and we got to the point that I just wanted to shed my tears. And so I cried, I really can’t help it. I almost forgot I also told him that I want to agree with my uncle and my mother for me going abroad so I could study there, I want to help my parents, I can see through them that they’re already having a hard time managing stuffs. As a daughter I can’t take that seeing them in pain or whatever. For me, I think that’s the least thing I can do, cuz’ if I will study there, they would not have a hard time on my sister’s tuition in high school next year. I don’t want this kind of life. But as James told me, I need to be strong, because he knows I can face all my problems. I guess I’m really strong deep inside, though sometimes my spirit gets weak with all the things that I’m going through.

(6:30pm)

I'm Sick :(

2008-10-02T02:22:00.000-07:00

Today was confession day! We had our confessions this morning and it’s a surprise! I haven’t even prepared myself for it. It lasted for three hours, while waiting for our turn, I read Rizza’s book, after that me and Sam had talked about the books that we read. I got interested on the book that she read entitled “Chicken soup for a Teenage Soul”, something like that, I heard about it before but I haven’t seen it yet. Afternoon: I’m so wrecked! I feel so weak, by our last period I have fever I think it’s more than that, I think I’ve been over fatigued. My knees are shaking and I can’t even stand still, starting from my hips and through my feet, I can felt pain, my head aches also my eyes, and I’m having a hard time swallowing not only food but also water, every time I swallow something it’s like something’s pinching my eardrums, and my throat is like so soared! The last time I had a fever like this was in my sophomore year, and I’m having it again. I don’t want this feeling, I don’t like being sick. All I want to do is cry, and cry and cry. And I left my iPod with Apol, darn it! I want to get well. :(

(5:23pm)

An old man, a young man, and I've learned life's greatest lesson. :)

2008-09-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

This morning me and Nadine should be sitting in the bleachers cheering for the school’s basketball team…and cutting classes. We planned on going with the team and cut classes just to support them, unfortunately we didn’t, because it’s just not the team are there, but I guess there’s also a teacher with them or an authorized person from the faculty is there, and if we continued our plan we’re busted! So I went to school, almost late again as usual. And a sudden surprise, our Math teacher told us that we are going out of school, because there’s an event in the main campus and only the two sections of the fourth year are invited, including us. It was boring sitting there, waiting for nothing, good thing I brought the book that I borrowed from Nadine, Thursday last week, it was entitled “Tuesdays with Morrie” by Mitch Albom, it is about an old man, a young man, and life’s greatest lesson, just like what the front cover said. I had a hard time reading it because of my busy schedule of practices and projects, and so I got the time to read it today. Guess what I have just finished reading it almost two hours ago.

It made me cry, a lot. And I learned lots of things, like when you feel lonely or sad, it’s not bad to cry, just let it out and when you think you’re done let go tell yourself that you’re done crying now it’s time to be fine again. And I also learned that, we should appreciate life in every simple way, money don’t matter if you got a lot of people who cares for you, right? I got here my most favorite lines and parts of the book. I want to share it with you, in case you might get inspired reading the book.

“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. you take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.”
“A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle.”
Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.
“A wrestling match.” He laughs. “Yes, you could describe life that way.”
So which side wins, I ask?
“Which side wins?”
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
“Love wins. Love always wins.”

“So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”

“The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”
“Let it come in. We think we don’t deserve love, we think if we let it in we’ll become too soft. But a wise man named Levine said it right. He said, ‘Love is the only rational act.’”

“On this day, Morrie says he has an exercise for us to try. We are to stand, facing away from our classmates, and fall backward, relying on another student to catch us. Most of us are uncomfortable with this, and we cannot let go for more than a few inches before stopping ourselves. We laugh in embarrassment.
Finally, one student, a thin, quiet, dark-haired girl whom I notice almost always wears bulky white fisherman sweaters, crossed her arms over her chest, closes her eyes, leans back, and does not flinch, like one of those Lipton tea commercials where the model splashes into the pool.
For a moment, I am sure she is going to thump the floor. At the last instant, her assigned partner grabs her head and shoulders and yanks her up harshly.
…
Morrie finally smiles.
“You see,” he says to the girl, “you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too—even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.”

“You know what that reflects? Unsatisfied lives. Lives that haven’t found meaning. Because if you’ve found meaning in your life, you don’t want to go back. You want to go forward. You want to see more, do more. You can’t wait until sixty-five.
“Listen. You should know something. All younger people should know something. If you’re always battling against getting older, you’re always going to be unhappy, because it will happen anyhow.”

“Money is not a substitute for tenderness, and power is not a substitute for tenderness. I can tell you, as I’m sitting here dying, when you most need it. Neither money nor power will give you the feeling you’re looking for, no matter how much of them you have.”

“As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. All the love you created is still there. All the memories are still there. You live on—in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here.”

“Death ends a life, not a relationship.”

-Tuesdays with Morrie

I just remembered today's Tuesday. :)

(10:31pm)

Mamajo's Birthday!:D

2008-09-27T05:55:00.000-07:00

What a day! Went to school, late again for CAT we had marchings and marchings, gadd my skin is like burning under the freakin’ sun! After that, we went to Goldilocks to buy Joseph(mamajo) a cake, cuz’ today’s his birthday! We experience slight hell during the practice, non-stop dancing and liftings, but in the end of the day we did a lot, and I’m starting to have that chance that we could win, or whatever. And guess what, A talked to me this morning, he thank me for the brownies that I gave him last Wednesday. And after our practice we went to Joseph’s place, for a bit celebration. We did telepathy stuffs, like looking on each other and your only contact is the eyes and also the eyebrows, sometimes. And we always got the same thought. When I got home, I called Nadine because I’m going to ask her if she’s going to our practice in UN tomorrow, and she told me that she were with A and the others in the PBA game held at the gym of our school, and they came up to the topic of love life, and Jake told A that he should court me or anything, Nadine told me that he just smiled, and I don’t know how to explain that weird expression. How I wish I was there, but it’s okay. I still have other times, right? :D

(8:56pm)

Last High School Field Trip.

2008-09-24T20:04:00.000-07:00

Wednesday, September 24, 2008: It’s our field trip! I woke up at about 4:30 in the morning; James picked me up at 6:00. Our first stop is in Luneta, to the lights and sounds thingy. It’s not that fun in there. Next is in the Museo ng Katipunan, I like the diorama, the made it look like the actual war way back years. At lunch time, we ate at the bus before we go to Greenbelt to watch Mulan. At Greenbelt we were given the opportunity to roam around, because our call time is 12:30pm. I and my friends went to this shop that sells Japanese stuffs, they’re so cute. We bought this rings, that seemed to be our friendship ring, mine was Monokurobu (wrong spelling, I guess) the white ones.
At 12:30 we’re still in the line, so James asked me to come with him and help him buy his best friend a cell phone charm. So I and James went to this store where I bought the ring again. And the sales lady went up to me, and told me that someone lost her wallet at the store whom our schoolmate, so we rushed upstairs to look for the girl, I asked teachers and students. It’s kinda’ hard looking for her with so many people at the place. At last, we found her. So we went back to the shop, and she had her wallet back, thank God. Just a thought:
If I were at her place, and no one told me that my wallet dropped at the store, would I be happy? Of course not, that’s why I also had that reason for going back upstairs and telling her that her wallet was found.

We went inside to watch, I was seated at the back of A, and I was like “wee!omg!”. That’s the first time we’ve been that close for a long period of time. To be honest, I fell asleep at some parts of the show, and I don’t know why. I woke up when the spot light was flashed towards us. I kinda’ freaked out, because I was shocked. When the partner of Mulan showed up, all the girls are screaming. His name is Pj Valerio, and his hot as hell! I didn’t know that it was him, the walked and looked at me outside before the show. After it, all the girls wanted to go down, they all wanna’ see him. Me too, but I thought that how can you see him with this entire people? And then, he passed beside us, and I screamed and screamed with all the happiness! Haha.. and oh, I also bought a book at National Bookstore. The book was entitled “I heart you, You haunt me” by Lisa Shrouder.

Next stop is at Ocean Park, when we got off the bus. It was stinky outside and kinda’ inside. There’s a lot of sea creatures there! And a lot of huge fishes! Outside, there’s a view of Manila Bay and the Sunset, the breeze was cool, but not cold.

Last stop, at the Mall of Asia, I was with Athena, Samantha, and Agni. We ate our dinner at Sbarro (bigtime.xD), fooled around with all the foreign people passing by us. I told them that I want to give something to A, so we looked for that shop that I bought muffins before, it took us more than 30 minutes before we found the shop. I bought him this assorted muffin with brownies whatever, I also bought another one for my family. I was left with 40 pesos on my wallet and that sucks, totally! It felt like shit when we wasted our left time looking for him, and the mall’s too big, I almost gave up, I was left with Agni looking for him, and we decided to go to where the buses are, then we found his classmate I asked him if he was inside, he said yes. I decided to give it to his classmate so that he’ll be the one to give it to him. While walking back to our bus, a thought popped out my head “Kung kaya pinalabas nalang natin si Alfred, edi ako mismo makakabigay sakanya. “. So I told Agni to run over JM and tell him to ask A get off of the bus, because I’m going to give him something. It turned out that JM still gave my gift, while I was there, because I was so shy!!!! We had a witness, Jem was there she saw everything, A don’t want to take my gift maybe he’s also shy, but I told him that its his and it’s for him, we were talking while smiling, I want to faint! I made him smile; at last I saw that smile that that was I’m the reason why.

(10:00pm)

River

2008-09-20T21:34:00.000-07:00

Saturday again, we had our CAT today and after that me and Apol went to Jerick’s place first with Olifer(His GF), afterwards we went to Gase’ house because we are going to the dam or the river in Tanza. Dario and Wilmer are drunk, and gad! They’re talking way too much and guess what, they’re telling stuffs about me. Maybe I shouldn’t mention those things; it’s too confidential for them. But we burst into laughter in what Dario is saying all over again and again he’s like a “Sirang plaka”. We understood his condition, he’s drunk, remember? So we climb mountains?? Maybe hills, small hills, just to get to the place. It is so hard walking and climbing there because it’s too slippery. And we got to the place it’s so breathtaking, it doesn’t look like you’re in Cavite. We saw the falls and it’s so high! So we swam the river, Dario and Wilmer are still speaking. I didn’t attend our cheering practices because of where we went, and I don’t regret anything about it. That’s one great experience that I had, ever! Too bad we didn't have cameras or videocam.

After we went to Tanza, I went to Carina’s place, she was celebrating her 15th birthday, while we sang karaoke, my friend (whom I told ya’ guys that was crushing on me), sang this song. Before I went home, he mentioned about what he sang and apologizes. Why is it he’s so demanding, while I didn’t even react or said something while he was singing? It bugs me.

(9:20pm)

I hope he got my point. :)

2008-09-17T14:48:00.000-07:00

Gyea! I have the DVD of One Tree Hill from Karen and just finished watching it for today, and I'll continue watching tomorrow; I started at seven, and now look at the time! It’s like an OTH marathon! I’m completely addicted to the show, and now I got to watch it from the very first season up to five which is the one on TV nowadays.

I remember what happened yesterday on our English class, we were talking about the Fall of Troy when Paris went up to Oenene to have this cure for anything stuff, but she refuse him because of what he did to her before and watch him die then killed herself. My teacher asked me if I’m going to do the same thing if I was Oenene. I said no and I would still help him, and my teacher said “Gad! Kit, you’re such a martyr!”, and almost everybody are ooing. Guess what, he is my seatmate by that time. I hope he gets my point.

(11:13pm)

Got an Award!:D

2008-09-15T06:30:00.000-07:00

I got this award from kikai, thankyow!!!:D

Rules:
* The winner may put the logo on his or her blog.
* Put a link to the person you got the award from.
* Nominate 5 blogs.
* Put links to the blogs.
* Leave a message for your nominees

Me nominees :D
Mike
Fei
Nadine
Patricia
Chy

(9:38pm)

i Hate This Random Feeling :(

2008-09-14T06:21:00.000-07:00

I just had enough!! It’s like one day; “I like this guy” then the next day “No! I like this guy!” , its totally freaking me out! And now, I love my friend, goodness sake! It’s the second time around. This time I’m not going to tell him right away, because we are getting really close, and I don’t want to ruin that bond. So I’ll just keep my mouth shut. And I hope this time this is really it. Seriously.

(9:26pm)

Cool!:D

2008-09-13T22:30:00.000-07:00

I won second place!!haha..Not bad,eh?:)

(1:31pm)

I want to make a Difference

2008-09-12T07:10:00.000-07:00

This morning we had this project slash quiz in Physics. Yesterday night we made a toy car here at my place, they left the house pass nine. It’s a great thing that the two groups (my group and Nadine’s) had a perfect score this morning. In the picture left to right: it’s me and bespren Agni (Dj Angi :D), our toy car, and Jozef, he belongs to Nadine’s group.

I had this video here, a song about fighting for cancer stuffs like that, the one that is like USA for Africa many many years before. And I realized this one thing when I finished watching Chris Daughtry’s “What About Now?”, we can still make a difference, we can still help the others that’s in need. We can be the new Hope of this planet, we can make a change. If only everyone could realize that, I know deep inside there’s still hope, God won’t let us fall just like that. Just like in the line of the song “Before it’s too late”, before everything else, let’s make a move and be the hope of our generation. Right?

(10:11pm)

From the Start: he's the one i <3

2008-09-09T07:43:00.000-07:00

9:35pm Hey! Hey! I’m still doing my assignment in accounting, rewriting it. I think this is the fourth time that I’m going to rewrite this! James helped with my assignment; he left the house with the rain pouring hard and ZOMG! There’s no tricycle, and so we just laughed at our selves while waiting because we look like idiots outside my house.
10:32pm At last! I’m done with my worksheet, I took so much time because my dad and his office mates came here to eat dinner, they had a rescue here in Cavite maybe, so that’s why they dropped by. Earlier this afternoon, after class though while I’m writing the name of Joe Jonas on our blackboard and singing songs, when I looked outside I saw A, and know what I told James to go with me, so we rushed downstairs from the fourth floor! And when I was walking towards the court (where they are having they’re training) , I saw him looking at me!!!!!!gadd!!!and I was like whatever!!! I saw him looking at me thrice, I dunno’ if that means something or am I just weird. Whatever! :D

Goodnighties!!!:)))

(10:40pm)

Absent for a Day :[

2008-09-04T01:26:00.000-07:00

Ugh. I’m absent today because of my period, it hurts so much that I can’t even eat, walk, or even talk. That’s why I decided not to go to school this afternoon, and since the heat is very hot its better not to go, or I’ll find my self in the clinic because I collapsed in the classroom because of the heat. But I’m okay now, I think I slept for two hours and I ate my lunch late 3:00 pm. I hope that this won’t hurt again later on and on tomorrow. :D

(4:27pm)

I Want to Share a Story

2008-08-29T04:29:00.000-07:00

This is a story about my friend and her confusion.
Have you ever made a wrong decision? Have you ever told someone that you like them, while on the other side you still like the one before?

When she thought she has forgotten that guy she liked or maybe almost loved, still she’s still into him. She told someone else that she likes him, suddenly one day came that she realized that she still love this previous guy. She is into confusion right now on what to do, because the guy she somewhat likes loves her, while the guy she loves ignores her. She can’t tell the other guy that she don’t want him anymore because it would hurt him like hell. And almost everyone knows about the feelings this guy have for her and all of a sudden she would change her mind. That’s why she is confused and full of regrets. Ever in her life she doesn’t regret anything, at least once and now it’s the second time around. She likes him, but she loves the other.

That’s her regret in the decisions that she made, I just wanted to share her story with you guys so that you can see the reality in life, and it is possible that when you thought that everything’s fine, still it’s not.

Will she keep on hiding what she really feels? Or is she going to tell the truth?

(7:40pm)

The seven things :D

2008-08-28T06:04:00.000-07:00

Gawd!I'm so innocent!ahaha..I didn't know Miley Cyrus' new single entitled "seven things", and I was like "Anong kanta yan?sino ba yun?si Miley ba yan??!!", and Nadine told me "Oo kaya,di mo ba alam yan??", "Hindi eh,di kasi ako nanunuod ng TV..kawawa naman ako".

And I liked the song!<3

Today the Seniors won the Karakol!Two times in a row!Yeababy!hahaha..Nothing new. Again,we went to Chad's place. It's so boring cuz' we have classes tomorrow, no more NCAE reviews every Friday and the start of our serious practices in Cheering! Aww...Busy,busy,busy!!!!D:

Watch this!<3

(9:12pm)

Let's give it a shot. :D

2008-08-25T01:22:00.000-07:00

"Life is an unpredictable matter, you cannot tell what might happen to you from the very first, but trying is not something for us to be afraid of. Try new things in life, or maybe try looking on the brighter side of negativity. Giving up is not the answer. Life is unfair, we all know that but God has a plan for us, a plan that we can never regret."

(4:23pm)

A Long Weekend.

2008-08-25T00:13:00.000-07:00

To start off, I have summed up information’s of what happened last Friday until now.

Friday/Aug. 22,08: We had our last reviews for the NCAE, it’s kinda’ boring though, a one whole day of review, phew! After classes we had cheering practices also in basketball. And after practices my friends decided to go to Chad’s place. I was with Prince that day (he’s not yet courting me, but I like him and he already knows that. :) ) , we hang around the court as the others are playing ball. We watched the stars! And hella’ yea they’re so many! I went home pass nine, almost ten, and my dad was freakin’ mad at me! Ahahahahahahahah, but its okay cuz’ I know what I did and I have to take the consequences right?

Saturday/Aug. 23,08: I woke up early because I’m going to UST! Yay! I and my friends passed the application form in UST. We took the bus, and we got there for about ten in the morning, after we passed the form we went to MOA to have our lunch there and roam around. We ate at Tokyo Tokyo, I ate that tempura thingy with vegetables my favorite! After eating we went to Fully Booked because I’m looking for this Religious book about God and your love story, my guy classmate went right through me and told me that he likes me. And I was like “di nga?!grabe hah?!?!bakit?!?i mean..whoa!” ,I was shocked because we were that close and all of a sudden he likes me. And I told him that I already like someone else, I don’t want him to expect things on me or whatever. That’s the best thing I think that I ever did, to tell the truth. I don’t like the fact that after he told me about it things changed, we were close before and now there’s a distance between us, and I hate it. When we got home in Cavite, we dropped by for a while at school and he told me that I should forget on what he said. And all I have to say is “ganun?oh cge..”.

Sunday/Aug. 24,08: I woke up early again! Because I and my family went to the church, the sermon is about the Good Samaritan, and that’s our lesson in Religion at school. After the mass, I went to the photocopy shop, to reproduce copies about Troy (our lesson in English), I couldn’t wait for it to finish cuz’ it would take a lot of time, it is for about 14 pages 21 copies. So I went to my granny’s house, because my aunt called me and asked for help about printing her daughter’s project, sadly I can’t print it, they are using Windows Vista, and I had a hard time about it. And duhh I’m using XP not Vista. I called my friend to fetch me so that we could go to my cousin’s house, we made our very own “Fiesta”, we went to the market to buy some ingredients and we are the ones who cooked the dishes! I cooked the spaghetti with the help of Mikee.

Monday/Aug. 25,08: A boring day! That’s all I can say. I miss him.. You know who, the guy on the first paragraph. :)

(3:46pm)

We talked about respect

2008-08-16T04:18:00.000-07:00

What a day! This morning we had this Leadership Training at school, so all of the club officers should be present. And I was there, we did some activities involving leadership of course, and how a leader should lead his/her members, and he/she is responsible for them. I learned a lot of things even though I didn’t enjoy it that much. And we should learn to consider things when we lead something and we need to respect each others ideas or opinions. Speaking of respect and leadership, at last the conflict in our cheering team is finally over. I guess? Just like in what I have said, we need to respect on each others ideas and we should not only look at other’s faults, also ours. And don’t just do things without thinking about it. Remember “Think first before you act”. But I’m glad that everything’s fine now.

Going back, after the training my friends decided to eat at McDonald’s, unfortunately Nadine didn’t make it, because she attended a practice at their church. As we were eating, Varvs went to our place and told stories, and we stayed there for almost an hour and a half. Goodness! But it’s fun, ahaha… No classes on Monday, but I need to study…sob..
I hate physics, accounting and our current lesson in mapeh. Demet!

P.S thanks Prince for the treat! :)

(About this new guy in school, he’s not my crush anymore :D)

(7:20pm)

Adrenaline Rush

2008-08-09T06:24:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, you can see who really are the ones who cares for you,

Specially on unexpected moments. :)

Phew! Our periodicals are finally over! And this day is so unpredictable. In the morning we had our last three exams, and goodness sake! I really hate physics. OMFG!.. and we had cheering practices in the afternoon, and I heard there are some issues about our dances or whatever. I don’t want to be involved, but I think any moment from now maybe I will. And so on, had practices of course, as usual nothing oh so new on our routines, same old stuff. Suddenly when me and Sam are just sitting and waiting for our turn my classmate called me and guess what he said? Here, “Kit si chad namamatay na!” and I freaked out and said “put*nginamo ano nga?!?!” and I rushed through the canteen and I saw my friend having stomach cramps, and we don’t know what to do, so I told them that he should lie down, it took us about 15 minutes thinking what we should do, and we figured out to call our teacher and we rushed him in the hospital. I was crying so hard when they carried my friend if felt pity for him and I don’t care if we have practices I want to go with my friend. And so I was still crying even if we’re on the way and was saying over and over is “Lord tulungan Niyo po si Chad alam kong kaya niya po yan”, I think I was saying that almost a hundred times and I’m still crying. When we’re in the hospital we waited for about 3o minutes and thank heavens! He’s alright!

We went to his house and watched movies and my friend is acting all the things that happened earlier, and they’re all teasing me because of my crying thingy. After watching the movie, I went out and I was shocked! OMG! There’s a lot of food, and I was like jumping like a kangaroo! Nyahah…so exaggerated! After eating, we took pictures (I don’t have a copy yet :[ ) …btw, thanks for all those who prayed for him. :)

And oh, i just got home..xDD Who would have thought, it rained after I saw the stars.

(9:31pm)

When I thought I could be happy.

2008-08-02T03:48:00.000-07:00

A day full of nonsense laughter and ending in a confusing way.

This morning I had classes because we have to pay that Monday that we didn’t went to school, we did nothing actually we just spent our time in the Computer lab with another section (IV-St. Joseph) and they did the same thing too. In the afternoon we had cheering practices for intrams, all we did are some lifting and added some dance steps to it. To be honest, I didn’t got tired! Yay! When I got home I just played my psp(naruto of course) xDD.. and I listened to my ipod. I heard these songs that made me remember the past (March 2008) here are the songs Nineteen Stars-Meg&Dia, How Much?-Meg&Dia, Because You Live-JesseMcCartney, Boston-Augustana, What About You?-Lala.. I don’t know why I felt something weird and all the first of summer memories just popped out on my head! And this is the shittest part, I remembered him, the guy that I’ve been talking about here since summer. The one who broke my heart, the one that made me cry, the one that made me stupid and blah blah’s.. I don’t know if I’m really that oh so over him, but if I’m not I want to be. I want to end all that heartaches I felt months ago and move on with my life, it’s like I feel so nostalgic! I want to break free from my old shell and see the sunrise again. I don’t want any pain, I had enough. I’m confused with my life on how I think, am I already having some mental disorder or something? And oh, I think I lost a friend it’s just not before, of all the people why him? He’s the least person that I think that could do that. And I feel like everything around me bugs me, I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t think the way I was before, and I feel like I’m slowly losing my composure. I need help, but I don’t know how to have it and from whom. In the end of this post I just want to get out of here. I want to go somewhere far away where no one knows me where I can start all over again, where I can have the strength I had before. I just want to break away.

“Kung pwede lang talaga ako magdrop sa school at umalis dito sa bansa, gagawin ko na yun! Kaso, hindi pwede…”

(6:47pm)

Month Ender :D

2008-07-30T04:32:00.001-07:00

Ohhh…I just miss posting blog entries. I’ve been busy for these pass days and a lot of things going on. Last Sunday I made a letter for HIM, which states on how much I like him and stuffs like that. I wanted to give the letter to him (not personally, I asked someone to give that to him) but unfortunately it was announced the night before Monday that there would be no classes because of the sudden rain and our president’s SONA. And so, Tuesday passed and still I haven’t given the letter to him, I’m so freaking nervous and scared!!! How was that huh?? Then I decided to give it today, and again I failed to give it to him this noon, because his classmate is teasing me to him (cause he already knows that I have this oh so big crush on him). That’s why I refuse to give it and think about my plan. And classes been going on, it’s pretty boring unlike yesterday. And the effin’ sun is burning my skin, because I sit almost beside the window. Library period today, my classmates tripped on our librarian and so on. Fast forward, while walking downstairs I saw the girl that I told to give the letter to him, and I gave it! Yey! I’m scared of what might happen and I don’t know what his reaction will be though he already knows about it. I just hope that he will be the only one to read that letter, because I don’t want to have issues at school again, and have enemies specially my friend who also has a crush on him. Good luck to me! >_<

“It doesn’t matter what other people think or say. I don’t live to please them. What matter is I’ve made the most of what I have, I had fun. I learned from what I’ve done and I’ve lived through it all despite the gossips and intrigues. That’s being real, just live a life fearless of other people’s shadow”

I always keep that in mind, I hope you too! :)

(7:46pm)

I need Someone. I need Something.

2008-07-24T07:06:00.000-07:00

Every days of my life passes by like its usual ways, sleeping late waking up early almost late for school, slept in classes, laughing hard, teasing people, seeing him, being with my friends, study, go home, and sleep. Then the same old routine again and again, I’m so sick of doing all of these every single day of my life. It seemed like I’m living my life in a small circle going round and round and nothing happens so weird or different from another. To be honest I kinda’ miss hearing the words ILY, IMY… I feel like I’m all alone and if I think I’m almost complete with my friends and family, there’s something missing. I feel like no cares for me and tell me they care for me everyday and tell me how important I am to them. And I tell the same thing to them too. I know God has a plan for me, but sometime’s I can’t help being like this, like no one is thinking of me. I just go home alone and that’s all. I want to be busy! (Though I am right now) but it’s still not enough to fulfill that busyness that I want to achieve. I’m feeling nostalgic about things. I’m so bothered about those persons who always judge me, and they think they own that person and that I can’t even touch or talk to him in front of them. Bullshit!!! So many contradictors! I’m tired of being bored about my life! Where’s the thrill? The challenge? Trials? I miss them, and I need them.

ILY(iloveyou)IMY(imissyou)

(10:06pm)

Unlucky :(

2008-07-19T19:41:00.001-07:00

I think I could be the most unluckiest person today..About the guy, we talked a lot though I'm so shy and after that he went home. so I went back to our dance practice and my friend told me that she likes that guy so much, and she also told me that the guy's crush is their classmate who also has a crush on him!OMFG!I was like woah, and all I did is not to react on what she told me. Cuz' she doesn't know that I have a super crush on him or maybe I like him so much. "patay malisya" in Tagalog. And I was effin' tired today, after CAT we did bulletin stuffs for my club and after that we had dance practice and I forgot to tell him that our project in AP should be in the Philippines only, and I did my best to find his land line number cuz' his phone is off or whatever. And I failed to have his number. I don't know what to do with my life after all the shits I've been through on and on, I really don't want the same thing happen with me again.

(7:23pm)

Busy, Busy, Busy :|

2008-07-18T07:40:00.000-07:00

Just got home from my classmate’s house, we did some bulletin stuffs for Sam’s club…I was really not a part of it, but I’d like to help so I went there with them. And I’m gone gaga from doing school shits and my freakin’ schedule is full from CAT to practices and doing important stuffs for my club and a lot more projects in my other subjects, that’s why I didn’t have that so much time to sit down in front of my PC and type. OMFG!!! Talking about school stuffs, about this guy that I’ve been talking about from my past posts, well it’s been so many days and I didn’t have the chance to talk with him in a normal way not like the way that we talked when he borrows my book and says thank you then that’s all. I’m really scared I guess, cuz’ my friends told me that I’m not shy about it, I’m simply scared of rejections(maybe) for me to happen again and again.
Enough the drama, Luna showed her best tonight and I got a picture of her and a star on her upper right. It reminds me of the Little Prince, the moon is the earth and the star beside it is the star that he follows all the time in the desert.
I think that’s all for now, and I’m effin’ tired!!!And oh, I got in on one of our school's photojournalist!!yey!Thank God!:).. Sayonara!! :)

(9:34pm)

A book :)

2008-07-10T05:41:00.000-07:00

It has been like forever since I had my last post! And my hands are freakin’ stoned while I’m typing I just got used of writing and doing school stuffs and now having a hard time just to type..jeezz….
This is the very first time…I read a book from cover to cover!!gosh!! It’s like an achievement for me to finish a book, cause I’m really not fond of reading stuffs. And so..the book I read was “The Little Prince” by Antoine De Saint-Exupery, it started when our English teacher told us to bring our favorite book, since I’m not fond of reading books I brought an old book for children entitled “Rebecca’s Rainy Day” and jeez they all teased me with that book!! And I saw this book The Little Prince from my classmate I told her that the cover and the title is like for children stuffs, and she said no, it’s for grown-ups or maybe to those who could really understand stuffs. And I got curious and borrowed the book. It was really confusing cuz’ the story is weird but full of moral lessons specially about friendship and how you should take care of the things or the ones you love.
Here are some of my favorite lines from the book. Hope you’ll like it. And please if you have time, try reading it. It’s really good. :)

“To forget a friend is sad. Not everyone has had a friend. And if I forget him, I may become the grown-ups who are no longer interested in anything but figures . . .”

“That is the most difficult thing of all. It is much more difficult to judge oneself than to judge others. If you succeed in judging yourself rightly, then indeed you are a man of true wisdom.”

“And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.”

“And when your sorrow is comforted (time soothes all sorrows) you will be content that you have known me. You will always be my friend. You will want to laugh with me. And you will sometimes open your window, so, for that pleasure . . . “

The next book that I will read is "Jesus' Final Warning" :)

(9:03pm)

Tagalog Version :D

2008-06-28T18:13:00.000-07:00

Yay!..Kakauwi ko lang galing moa(kasama sina Nadine,James,Athena,Lara,Joshua,Prince,Carlito,Jopol at Giron), actually ang purpose talaga namin ay para gumala lang, ang nanyari ay bumili ndn kami ng project namin s MAPEH un mga cones(the orange thingy)..Papunta sakay ng ferry boat, at nauna pa samin si Jopol kasi nagbus lang siya mga dalawang oras siguro siyang nagintay duon s moa..hahah..xDD
Aun pagkarating humiwalay samin sina James kakain lng daw sila at sabi magtitext nalang..pero di na nagtext sila..and galing..kaya text kami ng text sakanila at di kami nirereplyan.magaling talaga..
So, hinanap namin kung san san un project na yun..sa Toby's lang pala meron, at sabi ni Jopol andun daw si James Yap nagshushooting shooting duon tapos umalis din agad siya lang ata magisa..di ko naman nakita kasi nasa labas ako :( sad*..At yun nakabili din kami ng kakaibang project tapos nagpunta kami ng time zone para maglaro at inubos ang pera ni Athena..hahah..si Nadine pinapauwe na kaya pumunta kami ng Krispy Kreme at sa di inaasahang pagkakataon nagkita kami nila James,di padin sila nakaligtas,kaya ayun..sinabi ko na text kami ng text ang di kami nirereplayan dahil hinanap din kasi namen sila,ayun speechless..And tinext nadin namen sila Jopol para puntahan kami..
Sa kabilang dako, pinayagan si Nadine na magextend ng oras niya sa moa..hahah..kaya kumain muna kami s foodcourt nga lang,pero bago kami makapunta duon ay hinanap pa namin kung nasan yun..at si Giron sigaw ng sigaw ng "Yew!" at ako naman nasigaw din ng "Hoy!" hahah...mga kahihiyan sa lipunan..tinginan lahat ng tao sa amin..hahah..aun pagkakain bumili pa sila ng icecream..at nang trip nanaman..hahah..
At ayon pagkakita namin kila James ulit,sabi nila na mag ferry nalang daw sila na unang sinabi na magbbus..ang gulo di ba??kaya si Lara nalang sumama sa amin,ayon lakad ulit..tapos un sintas kuu di naka ayos..napatigil ako sa gitna ng mall dun ko muna inayos..at pinagtripan nanaman nila ako,pinalibutan nila ako, sunod nilagay nila un mga cone palibot sa akin..Kala nila napahiya ako,kahit hinde..kasi pati ako natatawa din pati mga taong nadaan duon sa mall saka un mga nagbibenta..hahah..xDD
Hayun..Pauwe na din sa wakas..unfortunately wala kaming masakyang jeep na papuntang costal..eh ang hirap pa naman sumakay ng bus sa Baclaran..kaya ayon,iapply ang lesson sa PE.. "breeze-walking" hanggang sakayan parang nilakad namin simula Mcdo Cavite hanggang Baste PN sa layo..hahah..at ayon,walang crossing nga ba un..un tulay sa taas na daanan ng tao..kaya twid to the maz sa hiway..un last na tatawidin namin nasa gitna na kami,bumalik ult kami kasi ang daming sasakyang paparating..at ang tagal tagal namin nagaantay ng bus sa kalsada at naabutan pa namin un fireworks sa moa at yung ulan..nang nakita namin un bus papuntang Cavite..ayon hala! takbo!...

At yun...nakauwe din ng buhay..:)

Long blogpost eh?But it was really fun!!Super fun!!:D

(9:30pm)

My 15th!!!

2008-06-24T06:56:00.000-07:00

I think this is my best birthday!evah!haha..
Morning: I woke up early today, cuz’ me and my dad is going to the church (a usual habit during birthdays), and I suddenly saw the morning sky or shall I call it the “semi-after sunrise sky”. And I just went up to our water tank thingy ladder so that I could capture a better view. But I like the one’s I took just outside our house and not above the water tank. :D
After the mass, when I got home Joven and James are already in our house cuz’ we’re going to celebrate or go to the main road for the water festival or “regada”, celebrating the birth of Saint John the Baptist. And it’s hella’ hot! But also kinda’ cloudy unlike last year, so we walked, danced, tripped on other people, walk again then eat. Yay! Hahah.. Quite fun eh?..
When we got home, they took shower at my place and then ate lunch.

Afternoon: As we are waiting for my other classmates, we just fooled around, played in my sisters PC, and tripped again.
When they’re already here, we ate and talked about stuffs.. Then Nadine figured out going to the site “peteranswers.com”, kinda’ creepy at first, but……….secret.. And my other classmates are sooooo scared about the answers showing on the screen. We were screaming so loud, saying banned words, and our house is like the public market, so crowded and noisy! Hahaha, still it’s sooooo fun!! And I was Happy. I think that this is my best birthday ever!!

I thanked the Lord for giving me the best gifts that I could ever have my family and my friends, they mean a lot to me, and I couldn’t ask for anything else.
Thank you for those who greeted me and especially to those who went into our house today!! Love you guys!!

Nadine,Joven,James Philip,Athena,Samantha,Arrianne,Lara,Jason,Giron,JS,Chad,Alea,Jopol,Carina,Carlito

“I’m another year older, and it’s time to be a lot stronger.” :)

(10:09pm)

It's officially over. Null and Void.

2008-06-19T05:34:00.000-07:00

So okay, two days after my last post I broke up with J, actually I broke up with him this morning. I asked him if he still wants me to be his girlfriend, something like that, and he said no and asked me the same question. And I also answered no, haha.. That’s life! Yay!
Btw about this new guy at school my friend introduced me to him this afternoon and I said “hello!:) (*shocked and nervous*) “ and I was like a stick standing in front of him and he smiled at me! Wee!! That made my day so!!!! Happy!!! Haha, I guess I’m really falling for him, seriously. But I should keep my limitations, I don’t want the same thing with J happen again which is really heartbreaking. That’s all for now! Time to make me self happy and enlighten again! Ciaoo’s!! :)

(8:40pm)

Shall I Call this "Goodbye"?

2008-06-17T06:21:00.000-07:00

They said that “good things come to those who wait” but what if giving up would be the best solution to this mind twisting problem?
Last week, I met this new guy at school; at first I thought that “hey! He’s pretty cute” which turned out the way I didn’t want it to be. I told J that I’m determined to wait for him no matter what, I mean it at first. But I’m feeling that my heart is getting tired and my mind too, is he just trying to hurt me so badly that’s why he couldn’t say that he doesn’t love me anymore? Or it’s just he want it this way?
I know that if I’m going to let go, all of the things that I’ve done and given up for him would be worthless and it will turned out that I didn’t kept my promise. But who says that “promises are made to be broken” isn’t true?
Well, going back to this “NEW” guy, I’m slowly falling maybe for him. I like him you know, but I’m too shy to talk to him or maybe just smile at him, I wanted to but I can’t I simply can’t, when I saw him I thought he could possibly be a part of my life. Looks like I stated correctly, this new guy that I’m talking about might be the reason why I’m letting go or what, and why I am slowly getting over with J unknowingly. I never saw this coming, seriously. I’m confused, and I don’t know what to do next with them, with me, with my life.

(9:30pm)

Sunday Morning

2008-06-08T07:13:00.000-07:00

Summer time's ending!Know what I have seen the most wonderful clouds ever in this summer,I'm just wondering why cuz the clouds this year is different from last year.And the sky is so blue and the sun is is burning my skin too!!hahah..

One more day and it's back to school!Half of me wants to go,and the other half wants to stay at home!Well,that's life.

Goodbye May. Hello June! :)

2008-05-31T05:49:00.000-07:00

Goodbye to all May happenings and welcome to June surprises!!
I haven't blogged like forever!But this won't be long like my previous posts..
To start of here is something below this..

Goodbye long!Hello short!
At last!I had my hair cut earlier,after long months.
And I think that maybe I should keep my hair short just like on the right side. I'm sored having long hairdo's for many years.
yea.yea!..XD
Btw,I dun like to talk about my lovelife right now..cuz' things are getting pretty complicated and confusing.
So,I'm off!I'm really not in the mood for blogging right now. And I only have a week before the classes starts,so I should enjoy my last week of summer vacation. x[
Btw thanks fer ze people who viewed my FS acct. this May..
Look:

And if yer bored or what try watching this

I've been watching them almost everyday!They are so cute!And I like Calvin so much in their group. :)

CIAOO!!! :3

(9:00pm)

TRYING

2008-05-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

Here I am again,telling ya guys what happen to my fvcking life.
Complaining about what always happen to me.
Pouring all my heart aches in this blog.
I know only few of you reads my blog,but this is the only way I could tell what I feel or what I wanted to say,and it helps me to be a little bit enlightened again.

I thought that we could see each other today,so i planned to go to school and get my P.E uniform with my friend and went to our friend's house.
Before that,last night I just can't help myself!I wanted to talk to him and see him. But he won't answer my texts.
My friend told me that I should call him,and he passed me his extra load for me to call my boyfriend. I was really nervous,cuz' i don't know what he might say or what might happen.
When he answered my call,i was catching my breath and after that i asked him how he's been doing,he said he's fine,then i asked him why'd he won't text me or send a reply to my texts and he said that he has no load. I took that as a slight excuse and let it pass. I remember he said that he would call me tomorrow(today) before the call was cut. Then he texted me and said that he will have a load tomorrow(today). and i apologized about the call was cut by GLOBE!!!!and told him goodnight.

This morning I waited for his text until noon,cuz' i know he wakes up late
And it happened that I waited until three in the afternoon for his text cuz' I told him that if he's free today,text me cuz' I want to see him.
I can't help myself that's why I passed him some of my extra load,still he didn't texted me or send a reply!
I was really frustrated,depressed,bumped and longing for him to just react or respond to the shits that I've been telling him all day!
Nothing happened.
As I go home, I hoped that I could see him or maybe a good coinsidence would happen. So i saw his friend,then i texted him if he was with my boyfriend earlier. He said no. It bothered me and wandered what might could happen to him or why is he ignoring me or whatever.

Until now i feel so depressed,unhappy,upset,sad,bumped,frustrated,nostalgic and a lot more shitted feelings!
I don't even know what's the next thing that I will do!
I'm tired of waiting and understanding his situations!But puhlease I only need a bit of his time lend for me,even only the five minutes of his busy life. I know he is so busy,but I need him so bad.I longed for him all the time. I don't know if he feels the same way too.
I hate being treated like this!I always feel like I'm worthless by the way people don't appreciated me or what I'm doing for them,I don't need all of their appreciation. I only needed Joseph's appreciation for what I've been doing for him.
I love him so much that I can't even be mad at him,I'm trying to be but in a spark all of the anger I felt for him just faded away.
I'm so stupid.
I need him.
I love him.
But I'm getting tired.
My heart aches too much.
I'm trying to move on while falling down to the verge of giving up.
I waited so long for him.
I'm thinking all the possible things beyond negativity.
I hope I can still hold on.
I know I'm strong in my weaknesses.
I'll just hope and pray for this to be all right.
But all I wanted to do now is to cry...

Sorry guys for wasting your time reading all my complaints in life and see how weak I am when it comes to these things, I just can't hide what I feel anymore. I feel so crushed.

11:55pm

Tagged?

2008-05-20T20:15:00.000-07:00

Game Rules :
A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.
B. These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people. People who are tagged will be blessed and their wishes will come true in the future.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
--> ppunthan kuu xah..XD
2. What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?
--> wulla... :D
3.What will your dream wedding be like?
--> s simbhan..taz reception s garden maybe?den lots and lots of flowers and butterflies!!:D
4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
--> kinda'
5. What's your ideal lover like?
--> i already found HIM :)
6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
--> both..
7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
--> maybe...
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
-->wulla..XD
9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
--> uhuh..
10.What do you want most in life?
--> DSLR XD
11. Is being tagged fun?
--> uhh?
12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
--> i wud not react cuz' my bestfriend won't do that!
13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
--> joseph,family,friends... :)
14. What is happiness for you?
--> everything? :D
15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
--> i dunnoo..XD
16. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react?
--> ewan..
17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
--> not all..most lng..XD
18. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
--> dna un mnyyre ult..XD
19. What type of friends do you like?
--> real ones
20. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
--> nothing :D

kirstie tagged:

`cheryl
`mitch
`champ
`jamie
`jazzy
`xty
`apple
`kichi

AWFUL

2008-05-20T06:17:00.000-07:00

I remembered my dream last night..
Well some of it..
I went to Plaridel(somewhere here in Cavite City), I fergot what’s the main purpose of me going there…and I went to my grandma’s house(my mother’s aunt) to get my things cause I left it there, and she told me someone was dead that day and we talked about it…
(in real life we were really not close)…
As I woke up I tried to think what I dreamt about after a few minutes I remembered that who I dreamt was already dead since Saturday, it was kinda’ creepy though.
But I thought is it a sign or what? I haven’t told my mom or even my sis about it. And I’m not planning to tell them a word.
God bless my granny’s soul.
I heard how she died when her daughter told my mother this afternoon when we went to their house.
It really made me to cherish every moment of my life and give importance to the things and people around you. Cuz’ you don’t know how long you could live.

As I was wandering there I saw my best friend or maybe my old best friend. I dunno’ if he saw me,but I wanted to call him or to get near him I’m just so shy and he’s with his cousins, I dun wanna be the center of attention there! I felt that I missed him, it has been about 9 or 10 months since we last talked. I miss his being oh so generous when it comes to me, he gives me what I want and I saw how he cares for me way back then.
He takes me home even though my house is just one street away from my classmate’s house, and theirs are so so far… I saw how he is such a gentleman brings my things, picks me up from school, fights for me, and cares for me a lot!

I really miss my best friend, and I hope he does misses me too.

(9:40pm)

YADDAA YADDAA

2008-05-19T04:53:00.000-07:00

Heelloo everybody!..
Last night I slept late and woke up early that cause me the thing called “low blood” and I was called pale..
And now imma try to sleep early cuz’ I’ll wake up early tomorrow for about 4 in ze morning..gaddemet!..
I’m missing a lot of things right now..
Like the sound of the raindrops
Cold nights
My nanny
My friends
My grandma
The sound of HIS sweet voice
The way HE tells me “I love you”
His arms
The way he cuddles me so hard that make me laugh a lot..
And his weird way of making me smile :)

For heaven’s sake, what is this life? It has been so boring from the very start of summer..
He’s not texting me again..i know he’s busy with the band and school shits..
But I want some time or maybe one day that we’d be together again..ALONE,so we can talk normally or act as our normal ways.
I want to go to school, I’d rather be that oh so busy than sitting and doing nothing with no one to talk to or whatever.
I’ve been listening to Mayday Parade all day, unlike before I listen to them when I want to but for now it’s like I’ve been listening to them everyday or every single moment of my life, the lyrics really touched me or maybe affected me so much. It makes me miss him a million times a day! I’m also been listening to their so songs that he told me to try listening… and it’s really nice…

Gadd! I don’t know how I can still keep my composure in place with all these shits.. :)
Imma’ be superwoman’s twin! :))

That’s all for now..

CIAOO~

(7:56pm)

Hearts and more Hearts

2008-05-17T07:18:00.000-07:00

heyya!whew!this day is tiring and memorable too..yea!yea!..
me and my friends went to the mall earlier to have time for ourselves and i got my ears pierced on the right side..pwahah..
before i go we watched "perfect creature", i thought i will like the movie..but it's hella boring...don't try to watch..XD
so i left early cuz im going to my bf's house, and he doesn't know about it..nyahah..i just asked his bandmate to help me about that shit..XD
we didn't talked..again..i stand there for about an hour and he's asking me to sit..(im not in the mood,talk to me bitch XD)..and the rain poured..i don't have any umbrella...damnit..
and when i was going home with his bandmates he said "ihahatid na kita sa inyo",and i was shocked!nyahah..my house was so so far from theirs and i said "sigurado kb jn?"..
hahah..
when we got out of the bus i ask him for us to walk before i go home,and we were walking in the rain..nyahah..and he's singing(gadd!i miss that sweet voice) and i sang too..hahah..

i thought that i would cry when i got home cuz' he doesn't talk to me,but i was wrong..
there's a lot of great things happened..and it made me smile like there's tomorrow..i missed him so much!that's why im like this...wee!
i want to be with him again..
nyahah..

Now i know the feeling of walking in the rain with the one you love.. :)

guunyt.. :)

(10:27pm)

BOREDOM

2008-05-16T07:49:00.000-07:00

At last! Tomorrow’s Saturday and I hope we could see each other after a month and many days..XD
This day is quite boring and fun and tiring.. gosh!..
This morninn me and my sis went to my grandma’s house(my father’s mom),because no one’s left in the house my parents went to work and our nanny had a vacation at her province. I just sited on the couch for 4 hours watching my sis and cousins fight with no one to talk to, and I’ve been listening to oldskul songs in the radio..nyay!!!
In the afternoon I found peace at last so I spend the afternoon texting and texting though I don’t like texting some of them.. :D
At night my mom fetched us. And we ate in a restaurant, when we were on the way home the freakin’ rain poured so hard and it’s so cold! Yea!..
And I opened the gate without an umbrella; it feels so good walking and laughing in the rain though I’m shivering!! And I fed the dogs and got wet again and sweep the floor… imma’ house keeper now!..nyay!..
The hardest part is we didn’t texted this day, he don’t have any load! For goodness sake.. and I’m missing him again..
I’m dizzy..
I want to sleep..
Hahayyy……
Fuckin boring shit life I had!

meowz~

(10:50pm)

2008-05-14T06:52:00.000-07:00

im bored.. im stiffed..
i got a lot of things on my mind.. and i dun wanna open it up right now..
it has just been a long night for me and a long day..
we can't seem to find ourselves again..
my life's wrecked!!!again...
i hope i'll get better soon..
and you guys are sooo lucky.. ye have a lot more wonderful love stories than mine...
and i dunno what the end of my story would be..

.__________.
i updated my fs acct.. feel free to visit..
*leave comments*
http://friendster.com/twilightsilohuettes

meowz~

(9:58pm)

XX

2008-05-11T11:41:00.000-07:00

My life's fucked up.
I'm so hungry.
But i don't eat well.
I don't sleep in time.
I look pale.
I'm dizzy.
I'm thinking random thoughts.
What could possibly might happen to me for the next 10 hours?.
I'm asking stupid questions.
I'm bored to death.
I miss him so much.
I hope he misses me too.
My back hurts.
I think I'm still alone.
Even if I already have him.
And that hurts a lot!.

I want to sleep.
But i don't think i can.
for now..

nyt shitheads!..

(2:45am)

SUMMER SKY!

2008-05-11T06:50:00.000-07:00

guudevnin!..meowz to everyone!..
this day is sooooo RANDOM!gosh!..
first day in the morning,all set to go to church..
in the noon i'm busy doing my sister's hair and helping my dad cook(cuz my sis celebrated her birthday today rather than tomorrow)
and so i invited some of my friends..we had a great time actually..XD
While im busy cooking stuffz i saw the sky..it is soo blue and has some clouds in it..
and i thought that i should take some pictures of it..so here they are..
(just click the smiley)

:)
:)
:)
:)
:)
:)

and some here with my friends..
(gadd!!i looked like retarded here)

.--.
So change topic..
as i said this day is soo random..
know what?!?!?..
24hrs have passed..and still he doesn't text me..
that fuckin hurts!..
and i dunno why..
i just fell asleep last night 4 the confrmation of my unlitext..
i replyed to his text last night once..then i fell asleep..stupidity!!!
and when i woke up i already texted him..
and until now he has no replies..gadd!!!..
i dunno why..and im feeling sooo lonely right here..
and i need him so badly!..
but he's not with me right now...
i miss him so much..
i hope he'll text me soon..
im worried to death..

:(

ERMM

2008-05-08T09:51:00.000-07:00

you guys might think my decision is kinda odd...or what..
and a lot reacted so much..
but don't dare to judge me...
cause you don't even know the story..
months ago..or a year ago..
so don't even try..
wala kah ding mappala..
:)

Things are Happening Pretty FAST

2008-05-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

omg!omg!omg!
things are happening quite fast..and i dunno where to start!!!..
my goodness!my hands and feet are all wet and cold right now..
and i can't breathe easily..i think im gonna faint here!!!
gosh!..i dunno what to say..

so here it goes..
we were just texting moments ago (until now)..talking about stupid stuffz..
den i asked him
"gwa muh?"
he said
"yosi.."
:(
i said
",gnun..u stil smoke eh?"
he said
"sory?"
i said
",bakt kah nagcsori"
he said
"la lng"

.i hate those kind of answers..
then the dramaqueen said
",gnun..dnman akuu kng cnuh mn pra pgilan kah..kea aun..concern lng me"
he said
"E mhal kta! mei ryt ka.."

.shocking..XD

i said
"ee d muh nman akuu gf ee..yay!"
he said
"Tau na..pwde ba un?"

omfg!!!..
.is dat 4 real?..

i said
"uu nman.."
i cant believe i said dat so fast!..

...then the rest is history..and still can't believe that he's mine now..
and i don't feel well!!!!im sooooo coolllllddd!!..and my heart is beating so fast..
and it's really a good thing that i waited for him and understood all of the possible reasons why we can't talk..or what..
still im thankful..

Thank God..
:)

guunyt everyone.. :)

RAIN :)

2008-05-08T05:39:00.000-07:00

I have a picture here of yesterday's sky..and it has a rainbow in it
the sky today and yesterday are almost the same, and the sunlight is kinda yellow..pretty cool huh..
and it rained afterwards..yey!..im starting to like the rain nowadays..and there's a certain reason why..bwahahah..
and it still rains and has thunder storms with it..oyes!..hahah..
enough of the shnizzles...i have somethng to tell ya guys..

This morning we texted.again..
and it feels so great texting the one you love...am i right or am i right?!?! hell yea!..
and guess what he wrote a song about me..and the situation that we had before when i still have a boyfriend..
aww..and i felt bad for him those days..cuz' i can't do anything for him..
but that was BEFORE!..
XD
i cant wait to hear that song he wrote for me.. they're ep is coming this june..
mann!that's a long time for me to wait..and i really want to see him...now..tomorrow..the day after tomorrow..and whatever..
i think im gone crazy thinking about him everyday..oh gosh..
i guess i said what i want to say?!?!..maybe..
so long to ya guys..

xoxo

HE'S BACK!!!!

2008-05-07T20:47:00.000-07:00

well, i realized that im a lot more comfortable doing my blog here rather than doing it on multiply.

let me tell ya bout yesterday night..

i was really mad at my sister so i decided not to eat and stay in my room(like what i always did) and i thought what if i would text HIM.. "wala namng mwwla ee" that's what i said. and guess what.. replied!!yey!!..

and we talked and he asked me to watch their gig this friday..

but i cannot go..my freakin' parents won't allow me!!!!

but he said it's ok..and it seems like he's back to his normal self again..and that made me smile alot last night..

what just happened is really unexpected..and i hope that he still loves me until now..

like what he said last night..

CIAOO!!!!

BLURB

2008-04-19T22:58:00.000-07:00

This is my 3rd time writing a blog, and this time i'll make sure that this one would last..LOL..

Today's sunday, and got nothing to do but sit infront of my PC and listen to FOB..boring right?!..well, i got used to it..

btw..i got my hair dyed red..oyes!..hahah..it doesn't turned out the way i wanted it to be,but i guess this one will do..

My mom dyed it two days ago and this picture i got here was shot moments ago..hahah..
here are my other pictures HERE and HERE